New Commitments.

My annual review post of 09 has been sitting in my draft folder for the longest time.
And I still have not managed to get it done.
I think I'll just do a brief summary of the commitments for the last year and the new ones for this year so as to get myself oriented to wad's gng on.

2009:
- Serving in church's Tuition Cell
- Dance (EMCC perf in March)
- Private tuition
- Chaotic Thrift
- Driving
- Honours year
- Internship
- Mission trip

2010:
- Cont' serving in Tuition Cell
- Dance (EMCC in end Feb)
- Final Sem
- Bringing CT to Bazaar
- Look for job
... to be cont'...

It's only been a week since the start of the sem and I'm starting to feel weary alrdy.
It's 3-4 readings for EACH mod everywk + assignments and presentations.
And I din get Counselling :( All thx to our very smart CORs system.
It's ok... I believe sth good's gonna come out of it yes :)

Haven't been feeling very appreciative of myself lately... (u noe wad I'm trying to say??)
Like... I'm constantly trying to be someone or attaining a certain expectation which I feel like I'm no whr near and it's not an awesome feeling.

This is when Carl Roger's theory comes to play:
Real self vs. Ideal self
"I am" vs. "I should"
And when they don't coincide or are very far apart, anxiety kicks in.

Sounds bad. But I know it's not gonna kill me so I'm gonna learn to commit my worries and doubts to God and find ways to reconcile my "selves".

The new week's gonna be exciting.
Promise :)
Cheerios ppl~~