March 31, 2010

WATERS OF MARCH


a stick, a stone
it's the end of the road
it's the rest of the stump
it's a little alone
it's a sliver of glass
it is life, it's the sun
it is night, it is death
it's a trap, it's a gun
the oak when it blooms
a fox in the brush
the knot of the wood
the song of the thrush
the word of the wind
the cliff, a fall
a scratch, a lump
it is nothing at all
it's the wind blowing free
it's the end of a slope
it's a beam, it's a void
it's a hunch, it's a hope

and the riverbank talks
of the waters of march
it's the end of the strain
it's the joy in your heart

the foot, the ground
the flesh and the bone
the beat of the road
a slingshot stone
a truckload of bricks
in the soft morning light
the shot of the gun
in the dead of the night
a mile, a must
a thrust, a bump
its'a girl, it's a rhyme
it's a cold, it's the mumps
the plan of the house
the body in bed
and the car that got stuck
it's the mud, it's the mud
a float, a drift
a flight, a wing
a cock, a quail
oh, the promise of spring

and the riverbank talks
of the waters of march
it's the promise of life
it's the joy in your heart
a point, a grain
a bee, a bite
a blink, a buzzard
a sudden stroke of night
a pin, a needle
a sting, a pain
a snail, a riddle
a wasp, a stain
a snake, a stick
it is john, it is joe
a fish, a flash
a silvery glow
the bed of the well
the end of the line
the dismay on the face
it's a loss, it's a find
a spear, a spike
a point, a nail
a drip, a drop
the end of the day
and the river bank talks

of the waters of march
it's the promise of life
it's the joy in your heart
the end of the road
a little alone
a sliver of glass
a life, the sun
a night, a death
the end of the run

and the river bank talks
of the waters of march
it's the promise of life
it's the joy in your heart

by

CASSANDRA WILSON


*Simple words put tgt in a catchy little tune.
Beautiful :)

And what about you?

Not tired, just mentally distracted.
I thot u can do better.

I really dun feel like slpg.
But I feel like I have so much on my mind that I cant conc on what I'm doing.
Yet I noe I'm only thinking abt one thing.

S'times I hate life's irony.

March 30, 2010

EMpower ME!

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Thanks guys :D

Poppy :)

March 29, 2010

!!

I realised that Pops sounded the mousehunt horn b4 calling me when he came bk from diving.
OIIIIII~!!

He owes me breakfast for tmr.

**plus that mouse ran away. pfft.

March 28, 2010

i give up

Can't believe I got so distracted by it.
Totally sucks.
Hate this feeling.
There is no logical reason why I sld feel like this.

Goodnight.
I'lltryagaintmr.
:(

March 27, 2010

That Passing Moment

We were driving along the streets in poppy's car.
I think it's aft sch or sth.
The sky's in a weird colour.
Slightly dark with a tinge of purple.
With erratic clouds.

Suddenly, a siren wailed.
I looked up the sky and saw fighter planes swooping ard.
Bullets started raining down.
Everyone's running ard in a frenzy.
Ppl falling, staggering, dying in front of me.

Soldiers started charging out from the corners of the streets.
We were abt to turn into a corner of the road when a soldier halted our car.
He signaled for me to get out.
The 1st thing I noticed was his rifle.

I looked ard and saw soldiers shooting at the civilians in their hands.
I know wad's in stall for me.
A sudden surge of bitterness overwhelmed me.
I looked back at Pops.

Like what they say, I saw flashes of my life in front of me.
I saw the things I've done, the ppl I love.
I rmbed the things that I've wanted to do, the words I wanted to say, the ppl I wanted to see, all the ppl I'm so afraid I'll never see...
It's so scary.
That moment is just pure heartache.
All I wanted to do was to reach out for pop's hand and pray tgt.

Then I heard the shot.
I felt it gng thru my back.

I waited.

I waited for the time to come when I'll feel the pain.
When I'll feel faint.
When I'll feel like I'm slipping away.

It never came.

I saw them taking pops away.
And I lay on the floor, waiting.

In the midst of the chaos, I sat up.
Puzzled.
And started walking home.

I heard another siren.

I sat up in bed and realised that pops' calling.
And I'm late for sch.

I had that dream more than 2 weeks ago.
But I can still rmb vividly how I felt when I think I'm going to die.
I never thot I'll be upset, because I noe I'll be in good hands aft dat.
But realising I will nv see my loved ones again, forever...
And that multitude of things I've left undone, the words I've never dared or bothered to say, the love I've never showed enuf...
That passing moment is enuf to make one cry.

March 26, 2010

PrisonBreak

gng to visit changi prison tmr.
omgsoexciting.
GOODNIGHT!

**Dear poppy... I will miss u so much... muack. Have an awesome dive trip!!!!

March 25, 2010

Nice Prof :)

I aspire to go for ALL my GEK lessons from now on.
Even the lecture on thursday, b4 the tutorial.
Because the prof is SOOO swt!!

I emailed him abt my interview today.
It was scheduled at 5pm (or so the HR person tells me), but I actually have to report 45mins earlier to do the written component (only got to know it thru the email which was sent MANY days ltr).
My tutorial ends at 4pm. How to go -_-

And I have been delaying this interview for almost a mth already coz the timing that they gave me all clash with my lessons.
So I emailed the prof to explain the situation and even offered to forward him the email for verification if he requires.

He replied in the morning:
"Liling, no worries. Do well in your interview ok? All the best to you."

Aiyo sweet or wad?! Din even ask me to forward him the email...

And because he's so nice, quite sad to see him looking disappointed when the class is more than half empty...
Since the mod is already so slack, I think the least I can do is go for his lect lah...

Ok, HISTORY readings time (damn the word puts me off alrdy.... reminder: test in 2 weeks time)

Planned and Jotted.

did sth useful today :)

- registered for commencement
- prepared for interview (kind of)
- sorted out my notes and files
- started countdown to paper due, quiz and exams (time to START doing history readings)
- got reply from lecturer that my term paper topic is ok and can go ahead with further research
- got back term paper results for History and Systems. Not too bad, reminds me of the satisfaction I get when I read my own term papers when it's done :)

wonder whr shall we go aft my interview tmr...

Time for QT and bedtime prayer.

Loved ones, pls pray for my interview tmr k?
That I'll have God's peace with me so that I'll be calm and not jittery, wisdom to answer the questions coherently and intelligently, and that I will be able to give my best and leave a good impression.

Results wise, I'm leaving it all to God coz I believe He has a plan for me. As long as I give my best shot at the opportunities that He provides me with :)

Night all!!

March 24, 2010

I STY with my little eye...

My affinity with eye sty is proven.
I get it almost every 2 yrs.
I hope it doesn't worsen by tmr coz I've got an interview to go :(

And so today I'm super not motivated to do anythg useful.
Coz the sty is irritating me and I dun feel like dng my readings.

And wad did I do?

I tried on my kneelth socks and ankle boots that I bought from Neulook couple of weeks ago.

I think I've found a place to tk photos at hm :)







I'm thinking of wearing this to Europe :) :)



hmmm.
I'm gng to go wash up again and try to work on my correctional paper.



Anw here's the stupid sty...
Not very obvious (I hope), but still freaking irritating coz it hurts when I blink and itch when I dun.
Pls go away by tmr :( :( :(

March 23, 2010

So Nice :)

Someone to hold me tight
That would be very nice
Someone to love me right
That would be very nice
Someone to understand
Each little dream in me
Someone to take my hand
And be a team with me

So nice, life would be so nice
If one day I'd find
Someone who would take my hand
And samba through life with me

Someone to cling to me
Stay with me right or wrong
Someone to sing to me
Some little samba song
Someone to take my heart
And give his heart to me
Someone who's ready to
Give love a start with me

Oh yeah, that would be so nice
I could see you and me, that would be nice

Someone to hold me tight
That would be very nice
Someone to love me right
That would be very nice
Someone to understand
Each little dream in me
Someone to take my hand
To be a team with me
So nice, life would be so nice
If one day I'd find
Someone who would take my hand
And samba through life with me

Someone to cling to me
Stay with me right or wrong
Someone to sing to me
Some little samba song
Someone to take my heart
And give his heart to me
Someone who's ready to
Give love a start with me

Oh yes, that would be so nice
Shouldn't we, you and me?
I can see it will be nice...

self-timer loft.

Looking for new places to take photos at hm.



Because my fav spot is taken up by mum's vaseSSS.







No place looks as good.
Gotta kp finding :|

March 22, 2010

Parfait?

Went for bible study at ZW-QB hs in the afternoon.
A tad far, but a much better environment for Sunday aftnn BS compared to the warm and slp-inducing classrooms at PHS.



In the mood of Spring, but the weather is like... autumn?
Inconvenient. But nice :)



We talked abt Passion at BS.
And how do we sustain our passion for God.
I realise that everyone has their strengths and weaknesses and ups-and-downs in their r/s with God.
There are times when we are fervent for Him, there are times when we simply feel so sapped of energy.
But God is always there, calling us, waiting for us, pulling us.
I always feel revived aft BS.
Aft hearing God's words, sharing with and listening from my cell grp.
I need to be determined in the immediate goals I've set to achieve :)
Poppy, let's put our plan into action too!!



The rain dis aftnn was CRAZY.
Went to meet mum at Orchard in the evening.



Dinner was really satisfying :)



Mummy absolutely love the Ginseng chicken soup.
I'm sure she'll be back for more in no time (she's a sucker for anything boiling hot).

Went shopping ard taka and saw the most gorgeous looking Harley I've ever seen.



Totally melts my heart I tell u...
I bet I'll be thinking of it for the nxt few days....
So perfect looking...

And during our search for Pop's belt, we saw this really good looking Ted Baker wallet ON SALE

TED BAKER Womens Bitton Black Patent Leather Purse Gift SetTED BAKER Womens Bitton Black Patent Leather Purse Gift Set

The inner side is GOLD.
My heart melted again in the span of 10 mins.
Perfect little wallet... on sale somemore...
Not dat it's really cheap lah. That's y I din buy :( :( :(

Poppy, on the other hand, bought his perfect belt :)
We were at AX, but THANK goodness the belt he wanted didn't have his size.
If not we won't have seen the one at Boss.
Which is so much nice, better quality for sure, and is 2 interchangeable sides!!





I drove us home to let mum have a taste of my driving.
No complaints, just dat I still can't park properly.
HAIZ.

Oh well, still a parfait little day for me :)

Hello new week!!

March 19, 2010

Because Juliette has a gun, I want one too.


Been searching ard for this fragrance by Romano Ricci.
But the sales girls keep telling me the latest they have is Ricci Ricci by Nina Ricci


Been wanting to find Juliette since I saw it in Juice last year.
I just wanna have a whiff of it coz name of the fragrance is sooo intriguing and the description was very contradicting.


I haven't been shopping ard for quite some time... Let me know if u see it ard pls!!

March 17, 2010

Addicted.

Finally submitted the addiction paper this afternoon.
Yeah!
And yes I do believe researchers should look into Spending / Buying / Shopping addiction.
It's already a problem for many ppl now (i'm VERY sure) and it's only going to get worse as people's spending power increase (or so they think).

Speaking of which, I think I show some symptoms, but probably not enough to make it pathological.

I ALMOST wanted to drop addictive psych dis sem coz I was appealing for Counselling.
I guess God has his wonderful plan for me to meet awesome group mates through this course (Qi I noe u reading, stalking me as usual haha). They had been really accomodating, caring and easy to work with. I love working with fantastic ppl :)

A couple more interviews to go over the week.

Jed's mum called me up last night to request that I sqeeze him into my tight schedule.
But I think he's the one with the tight schedule... Other den Wed, he'll be in sch for remedial lessons till evening for the entire week. Poor thing.
Guess I might be sacrificing Sat aftnn...
To think I was pretty worried abt my budget for Europe trip b4 dat... it's like a prayer answered :)

I've been hooked on lookbook for the past few weeks. My gosh the awesome things that ppl wear all over the world :) I'd love to wear them. But I know it's not gonna work in our horrible weather. Yikes.

Waiting for poppy to be done w proj.

I'm feeling hungry again.
I think I'll go home and finish my Calbee Big Bag.

Was reading some blogs just now and a qn pops up:
Why does it always take so much for us to learn to appreciate what we have, and so little for us to complain?

starbucks makes reading a joy

Woke up early today and went to Shaw Towers with Pops.
He had an interview at 10.
And so I made use of the time and settled down at starbucks to do my readings.



I find myself extremely productive with my cup of white chocolate mocha and the jazzy little tunes playing softly over the speakers.

I finished 1 reading in less than 45 mins.



I wish I can do this everyday :)

March 14, 2010

of bloating and pimples.

Finally me and pops settled our air tix b4 the emirates fare offer ends.
Managed to get return tix to London - Gatwick at $880 inclusive of tax :) Happy!
Din fly to Heathrow coz it's 100+ more expensive.
And we're transiting at Dubai haha how exciting is dat... (thank goodness it's only a 4 hrs transit)
We're flying on 13th May and coming back on 12th June. 1mth in Europe omg!! :)



Had dinner at PS and went IT Fair to get new GPS!



Met up with grace, sarah and teresa for dinner.
SUPPOSED to be XLB buffet one leh!
Sarah if u're reading this.... better book nxt time k! I wanna eat!! haha



Still, it was great fun to meet up with them lah.
Chronicles of Salah at Work was a great hit during dinner.
Fantastic plot and the actress was a natural.

Had indigestion and a breaking back aft dat...



Made them a little gift each to make up for all the times I missed gatherings and all the birthday presents, cards and wishes they've been giving me.
I really feel so guilty!
Must meet up frequently and eat nice things tgt k :D



Went to meet pops and co. at arab st aft dat.
They were supposed to be on a diving trip, which got postponed due to bad weather over at Tioman.
How disappointing...
But thank God, they got to know the news b4 setting off, not so worrying :)
Well, at least they still get to go aft 2 weeks!

So pops stayed over last night and we had mac breakie at my fav mac

I drank the OJ and felt like I had stomach ache.
Went toilet and realised that it's the fav time of the mth.
Sigh.

U noe how everyone's looking for ways to predict particular things and trends (be it human behavior, criminal behavior, consumer behavior, stock market, property market.... wadever u name it)
I tell u, nth predicts period as well as PIMPLES and BLOATEDNESS.
damn scary these 2 things.

And I think because of the OJ, I'm having cramps.
Totally no mood to do anything useful at all.
But Addictive is due WEDNESDAY.
shit.

March 12, 2010

stray then dun stay.

This whole Jack and his friggin affairs thing is irritating the hell out of me.
1st the not-very-good-looking-163cm-model girlfren, then the numerous others who came to declare their association w this matter and now the dramatic press conference.
I like a little gossip, but not in this way.
It's too close to home to feel like it's anything entertaining.

My personal take on cheating partners? Dun bother.
All u need is one word, and it's not even "sorry".

For a couple, u start of as strangers, u become friends, and ur level of trust for each other builds up from there.
It may come to a pt whr u trust each other with ur lives.
And all it takes is that few minutes of folly (or in this case, an entire 2 years) and that wall of trust is torn down.
This time, u not only need to build another trust-wall, u need to clear the debris.

Many ppl say if the other party repents, give him or her another chance.
He or she will learn to cherish u more.

Why do u need to make a mistake to learn to appreciate the one u (supposedly) love?
The logic sounds warped to me.

It's easier to trust a stranger than to trust s'one who has hurt u b4.
Forgive and forget.
The former is easy, the latter is tough.

It's gng to be a crazy long and tedious journey trying to make a broken r/ship work again.
It's like chasing a lost cause.
It's like running, working, fighting just to get back to the starting point.
Not worth it if u ask me.

I would give my blessings and say BYE.

And so I salute his wife.
Maybe it's responsibility, maybe it's for the children, maybe it's for some greater reason that I do not fathom. Yet.

They say all men will stray.
I hope it's just a pessimistic myth, not a hopeless truth.

God made One woman for that One man.
That was THE plan.
Let's not be greedy here boys.

**Disclaimer: All these are just my personal thots.

March 11, 2010

Puffy :)

It was the perfect weather to wear this today, coz it's so cool aft the heavy rain.
Love such weathers, I wish we can have this everyday :)



Huiqi said I looked like I'm from the victorian times!
no lah.... hahaha

March 10, 2010

strengths & WEAKNESSES

Sth out of my quiet time today:

A powerful life embraces pain, brokenness and weakness and understands that perfection is for Heaven, not Earth.

"God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong"
(1 Corinthians 1:27 NIV)

Just like God was with the flawed Gideon, He is with us. "God has promised, 'Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.'
So we say with confidence, 'The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?'" (Hebrews 13:5-6 NIV)

God Speaks..

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see"
(Hebrews 11:1 NIV).

Yes? No? Let me know!

I really hate waiting for answers and replies.
there are still 2.5 more days to this week, but I feel so anxious as the days go by.
Yes or no, I really would prefer knowing it sooner and not later.

I think I have a problem with delayed gratification (if it's a form of gratification at all).

March 9, 2010

Constant Motivation.

Addictive paper is far from done.
It's due in a week's time.
I need to hand up a commentary tmr, as usual.
I'm not doing any of those things...

Created a new wallpaper instead





Makes me happy :)
Coz I need constant motivation.

March 8, 2010

For Bread and Water.

We went to STA today and booked our tour.
Ahhhhh~!!!

Departed with $500 as deposit.
There goes half my ang-bao money.
I hope everything goes well from here :)



We applied for the student's card hoping to get some discount when we travel.
We need to save as much money as we can during the trip.

I cant wait. I'm so excited.
I wanna be in Paris, Rome, Venice, Prague, London. And everything else along the way. :)

Ah!! I have to stop thinking. Keep my mind on wad I have to do 1st.

And I tell u guys a secret.
I just watched Legally Blonde. Again.
I hate to say this, but I derive some weird kind of inspiration from that movie.



I dunno why.

Ok, onwards with Spending Addiction....

As I dream abt my days in Eu (eating bread and drinking water :| )

March 7, 2010

Have a Kit-Kat.

Presentation on Friday went alright, the ending was... extremely unexpected haha
Went to meet pops aft settling some sch stuff.
Supposed to meet PPs for dinner at Illuma to "discuss" abt grad trip.


Interesting but irritating order system...


Food was alright though...
Popped by the Korean restaurant on the other side coz the PFM cliques were there :)


Wore matching jeans dat day :D


Finally got to watch Alice in Wonderland!!
Tim Burton + Johnny Depp = Never goes wrong.



Loved it.
JD was fantabulous, esp when he recited the jabberwocky poem haha sho cute.
I dun think ANYONE else can do a better job than him in all his quirky roles.
And I love children's tales w a dark dark twist. Burton does it just nice.


The make-up was fantastic. It was like art.
And they always managed to make him look sooooo bad. In a good way.

**Disclaimer: When it comes to JD movies, I may be A LITTLE biased on the reviews. Coz I'll always like it :D

Took some photos in the cinema. I think they look really clear even w/o flash!

If any of u are still wondering if u shld get an S90, dun think alrdy lah!
Sad thing is dat I haven't got time to play w the functions proper yet :|

Poppy came to stay over :)
Saturday morning we woke up early to go tuition at church.




Morning suns are gr8 for cam-whoring. :)

Spent some time talking to ZW, QB abt out grad trip plans.
They told us that they went to Europe.
And the more we talked abt it, the more excited we get....................
And we started to have some really crazy idea~~~

Still, we went w our original plan and headed to the Aussie tourism board at Novena to collect some brochures.



And had lunchie at one of those old-sch coffee shops near by.
They serve great shio ba by the way :)


Den we had this sudden urge to go to STA branch at bugis.
Very strong urge...
And so we went....

B4 we left the car, me and poppy said a prayer to commit our gradtrip plans to pops because we believed that no matter how much time and effort we put into planning sth, only God's plans are the best.

We got a couple of catalogue and got to know that the 20% offer for Topdeck tours is still on till monday.

We sat at TCC and the crazy idea seem to be festering into sth that might actually happen!


Yes we might be gng Europe for grap trip omg!!
:X

To be confirmed on monday, I hope it happens :D

And finally, a satisfying dinner at Taka (I love the eggplant. and the pork. and the fired intestine!!)

And aft dat... I went home to rush for my research coz I have a proj mtg the nxt day -_-
Still, it had been a great weekend :)