... ...

If there's one feeling I HATE...
it has to be this...



Where's the friggin postman, where's the friggin phone call?
Anticipation is such a bad word now.

Weird Cravings

Calming drink. Happy food.

Cravings satisfied :) thanks pops <3

2nd days...

SUCKS :(

I need warm water bag and a comforting kiss on the forehead.

Sponsor a Child

After I settle down with my 1st job, there's one thing I really want to do.

Sth that I've been wanting to do since abt 5 years ago.

It's more than buying a branded bag for myself or getting a car.

I hope I can sponsor a child in the developing countries.

I hope I can share my blessings with the less fortunate, and help to give them a chance in doing great things for God.

Maybe you can adopt a child too, it's only about USD38/mth and you can make a whole life of difference for this kid.

http://www.compassion.com/sponsor_a_child/waystosponsor/default.htm

Mug-over.

Poppy's staying over at my hs tonight for a mug-over :)
(so dat we can wake up in time for Church tmr morning zzz)

Here's our mugging companion for tonight.
VERY much relatively healthy compared to the ones we have at his house (Big Bags, gummies, biscuits and Ice Creamsssss :) )



To all mugging frens, work hard!!!!!!

Food + Company

Been having lots of nice food and great company lately :)
I feel love and happiness!

Started with Leng's advance bday celebration at Dragon Gate: Dim Sum Buffet!!



I dun think we ate alot, but it was great to be able to spend time tgt since early aftnn, just chatting away and indulging in food :)

Went to church for gospel rally and went for supper tgt aft dat



We were practically tgt for the entire day :D

Den it was the start of mugging week :(
But wad best to cheer me up den a good shioky meet-up over steamboatXLB with my fav groupies!



B L O A T E D - _ -
But very happy and satisfied :))))
I hope we get to meet up again even aft we grad coz this is one bunch of really nice and fun girls to be with :)

And TODAY!

I met up with CH, WL and my dearest Dahlingggggg :)
We met over Aston and big thanks to CH who treated us, yeah!!
So happy to see dahling :) She put on a LITTLE weight and I think she looks even more gorgeous now :) She'll be away for filming for quite some time... really looking forward to another meet up once she's back :)
I'm looking forward to WL's wedding toooo heeeheheh :X



Met mum in the evening...
She wanted to show me which "souvenir" she wants me to get for her in Europe...
We shopped ard and ended up at AMK Hub for supper at TB late at night haha



BUT b4 we went to HER destination, we went to MINE first :)



I realise so far EVERYTIME i go to Newlook, EVERYTIME I'll buy sth -_-
New boots for Eu, suuuuuper worth the money I tell u coz there's my fav S word hanging all over the shop :)
I bought 2 slouchy cropped singlets and mum bought a pair of jeans :D Everybody's happy (just dat I'm happier)!
Met Ben there too!

And my dahling's bday pressie for ME :) the MAC pressed powder that I broke couple of mths ago... sweet beyond words :) Now everytime I use, I'll think of her :)
**Pssstt, when's our Passage A photo appearing on the headlines??**

And since dahling mentioned it today:



I painted my nails all the spring hues I can find at home hurr.
And yes I do feel happy when I see them :)

BUT not all food+company are happy and nice coz during my (attempted) mugging streak, there was the case of the:

:(

FWWWEEEEE!

Look at all the FREE lonely planet apps!!

Perfect for Eu trip :DDD



Free for a temporary time only, d/l TODAY!!

In the mean time

Still waiting to sign the apptment letter.. Hopefully nxt week :)

Pops went for his 1st interview ysterday, we both really really hope he gets the job.

It'll mean ALOT to us :)

But we know full well dat we need to place all our faith in God as he guides us thru His plan.

Read some blogs and talked to some of my friends abt finding jobs.

I won't deny it's not dat easy for Arts students to find jobs, esp psych major.

Actually, u can see it both ways - u are open to most jobs or u are not specialized in most jobs.

A couple of my frens managed to get jobs in psych-related fields, dealing with Autistic children, teaching, therapists. Some of them are looking for jobs in psych areas as well. Not easy. Considering we are now reqd to have Masters to practice. But I salute them for their passion and desire to stay true to their field of study. Sth I wld love to do, but maybe not now. In fact, I applied for school counselling as well but they din get bk to me. What I've been told is that there are alrdy at least 1 counsellor in each sch. Not that it's enuf (in fact, I believe it's hardly the bare minimum), but because most schools are unable (or unwilling) to pay for one more.

B4 considering to apply for HR positions, I spoke to some of my ex-colleagues and working frens and relatives. Alot of diff suggestions and advices.

Some say study 1st b4 u lose the momentum, the more u work, the more u dun feel like studying. But I've alrdy lost the momentum to study. 4 years is a good time to tk a break and do sth else except study. Plus, I wld really like to save up for my own grad studies if i ever pursue it :)

Others say work, and find a job dat pays u decent, passion is a myth, money IS passion. I dunno... but I hope it's not true. At least not all true. I understand that s'times we have more commitments than passion can afford to sustain, but doing sth that u dislike, or have totally NO interest in? I'd hate to be pulling myself out of bed everyday, dreading and feeling not just Monday-blues, but WEEKDAYS-blues.

I told my internship supervisor that I wanna do sth related to counselling, she told me to stay open. She worked in a completely non-psych related field aft her undergrad studies for a couple of years b4 pursuing clin psych masters. Studying is one thing, working is another. You dun noe exactly wad u're cut out for, until u try.

Going into HR is gng to be an adventure. I've got no experience or technical knowledge of it per se, but it's sth I THINK I can see myself doing, sth I even considered studying when I'm choosing my course for uni. Furthermore, one of my colleagues is doing HR and he really gave me alot of help and insights as to wad the field is abt, helping me to be more certain of my decision. Now that I got to study sth I really really like and still manage to find a decent job that I am interested in, I guess in some ways, I'm fortunate too :)

If I find HR a field that I really want to build my career in, I'd definitely further my studies in it and get proper certification in HRM. If not, I'd be saving up for counselling or even organizational psych :)

As of now, I NEED to start studying for my 3 final papers in 2 weeks' time.

Extremely low low low motivation and high high high inertia because I realise that as long as I dun fail, the final exam wun affect my pay :P

BUT I promised myself to always give my best in all opportunities that God has provided me with.

I really sld study... STUDYYYY!

** I feel like going IKEA again...

Officially... offered.

haha... the title sounds awkward...

Anw... came to sch early this morning and while pops was getting his breakfast and me eating my peanutbutterbread...

I felt my ph vibrating....

But b4 I had the chance to take it out, it switched to a missed call...

Checked the no. and it's soooooo familiar...

Because it's the no. I've been waiting for for the past few days...

Called back with escalating excitement, and poppy was staring at me with anticipation as well...

"Yes yes definitely, sure, no problem, 14th June, OK!"

Twirls ard in joy~~~

(the last time I twirled ard in joy was when pops said his sinner's prayer and got baptised)

I was offered a job!! But I still have to go for medical check-ups b4 I can sign the appointment letter... So till then, I will only be Officially Offered, and not Officially Employed hahaa

When I was initially asked to go down for interview, I honestly had no idea when or what did I apply to :| I think I applied thru careers@gov... It's only during my 1st interview that I was told that the position wld be related to corporate development.

Midway thru, they told me that they have an internal position for HR and asked if I might be interested. U bet I jumped at the chance :)

The 2nd interview with them was great... there were 3 interviewers, but the atmosphere wasn't tense or anxiety-provoking at all...

They were very friendly and polite when asking questions and eventually, it became more like a conversation b/w 4 ppl rather than an interview... we were laughing and cracking little jokes and I find that I cld answer their qns honestly and comfortably.. altho at one pt I was squirming in awkwardness when they asked me whether I'd like to "contribute" to the event organizing part for the organisation with my hiphop experience. O_O

That apart, I'm surprised to say I actually enjoyed the interview session :) I think it's impt for interviewees to feel at ease during interview because the main pt of the interview (at recruitment) is not to scare them off or see how well they perform under extreme stress, but what's their disposition like, how well can they fit into the org culture and generally do they have the ability to perform in their jobs and whether they have the attitude to get them far.

Will be working in the field of HR for a gov sector (not sure if I sld say the name here, in case someone google and find this haha). I guess HR is somewhat the closest thing I can get to psych related jobs (when I cant further my studies in psych yet) because there will still be interpersonal interactions (and it's not in the form of sales or customer svs) and the HR manager also told me that at times, we have to act as "Aunt Agony" to listen to the problems that the staff might face. Sounds good to me :)

And from what I hear during the interview, I really like the company culture... They seemed to be aiming towards even more holistic, uniform and validated way of HR practice. Hopefully Organisational Psych can come in useful here :))

They even asked me which area I wld like to contribute to their community service involvement and I told them mental health :) I hope I get to do it!!

Ok... i intended this post to be a really short one. But it has turned out to be one of my usual long-winded descriptive essays again. dammit.

My whole pt here is.... I really want to thank God for giving me His wonderful blessings that I'm able to stay calm and collected during the interviews to give the best side of me to the interviewers :) Also to thank him for helping me stay faithful and certain that whatever happened, even the initial rejection from T* was part of his amazing plan (my future workplace will be just 4 mrt stns away!) He has taught me how to commit all my worries to Him and simply trust Him and just give my best to all the opportunities that He has given me. Right now, I just hope that everything goes well until I sign the appointment letter :)

Thank u so much also to my ex-colleagues who had helped me a great deal and friends and churhies who prayed for me :) I really feel God's peace and blessings... thanks so much guys!!

And pls pray for XW as he goes for his interview tmr morning... :) :) :)

Short. short short ;)

Last day of school.

No dramamama moments today, just a few photos with ppl in class :)
Still upset I missed Addictive last lect :(

Supposed to mt pops aft sch, but smart alec me thot that I shld take the train from Clementi to JE then take down again so I can get a seat.
By the time I realize whr I'm gng. I'm already at Woodlands -_-
**I was watching videon on my iPod**

So I reached home ard 4, had a shower and started to laze ard and enjoy being at home in the afternoon :)



And do my fav things!
Yeah :)

Life's simple joy...
Is abt finding joy in life.

**Rehearsal at church ltr, followed by wala, followed by DIMSUM gathering w my loves tmr and the skit perf for GP at night :)

JOY!!

Final Term Paper

Completed my final term paper of my entire school life.

From not even knowing where to source for info to learning how to cite in APA style to writing thousands of words for one assignment.

We've come a long way these 4 years :)

Final seminar tmr b4 I bid school life goodbye.

Coz what's left of the 2 weeks to come, is not school-life, but pure mugger-life.

In the Spirit of Europe

Less than a month away!! :)

In Loving Memory

Have been reading and summarizing my history of psych TB for the past week.

If it had not been such a mad rush, I wld have actually found the book a good and enjoyable read.

I'm still 1 chap away from finishing what I sld summarize for the coming test on WED.

Tight schedule.

But still, I cant resist the urge to write abt the thots that have occurred to me as I read abt the life stories of one great name in psych aft another.

I've got tons to say, but I shall restrict myself due to the lack of time and my throbbing wrists (from all the typing).

Firstly, I learned to appreciate Darwin's evolutionary theory. But I wld still say that I think it answers the question on evolution but not origin per se. And as I was reading Darwin, I happen to catch a documentary on the Galapagos Islands. Such a beautiful place... I wish I can go there some day :)

I also realised, especially through the account of Darwin, that most of the time, ppl start of not certain of whr they want to be and what they want to achieve. They walk along, pick up random skills, knock on random opportunities that were placed in their lives, meet some random ppl, and little did they realise that they are well on their way to establishing sth great.

It's also amazing how, in the past, each scientist can make significant contributions to so many diff areas of interest: physiology, psychology, philosophy, physics, zoology, geology, biology, arts....

Reading abt the limited opportunity that women of the 18th and 19th centuries had for education, I feel really fortunate to be born in a time (and place) where educational opportunities are often taken for granted. Distinguished women in psych like Calkins were often rejected official admission to university programs and were commonly refused doctorate recognition by the colleges even after they have completed the course and even submitted iconic dissertations.

I've never really appreciated the impt of research in psych. I understand its value and contribution to the field, but I hated the statistical component to it. But it was precisely the insistence of ppl like Pavlov and Watson on objective and precise research techniques that helped to create a firm scientific standing for psych. Can u imagine us complaining abt the fuzziness of this field? I can only imagine their frustration then...

The amount of time, devotion and effort that these researchers put into their work is greatly admirable although I can never imagine myself doing things like that. 10- 20 years on one study, to find out 1 answer, to explain 1 phenomenon, to establish 1 theory. Of course the repercussion of these efforts last way beyond even the existence of the person. Just look at evolution.

Looking at the lives of these great ppl, fast-forward, brings forth a sense of inexplicable emotion that is probably best represented by a sigh. (yes, I literally meant that it's a feeling I can't explain)

They often start off with such great amt of fervor and passion in what they want to achieve, they worked hard and furious at it, trying to pad their theories and hypotheses with great volumes of evidences, they attain certain breakthru and finally some sense of recognition. Then they start to worry abt how to further dev their theories, further support it, make it more applicable and practical. Finally, a new wave come crashing down and they lost their limelight to some up and coming, young scientist who is presenting on some fancy new theories. 10 yrs, 20 yrs, 30 yrs... they past in a wink. Life past in a wink.

It's like once the glitz and glamour of being the rising research star fades away, ppl are still trying desperately to reach for things to hold on to.

One of the great man died with depression abt his diminished power and standing in the field, yet another refused to attend an honorary convention, backing out at the very last minute due to his worry that he cnt control his emotions like how he had proclaimed in his famous theories. My fav scientist, A. Ein, was said to be still working on his Unified Theory even to his deathbed.

We have learnt much from the works of these ppl. But we also have much to learn from the ppl themselves, I believe.

I just dun like it when we're tested for it -_-

Choclait Chips Classic

Had to "share" this.
My fav fav treat when I was young. Haven't had the chance to eat it for more than 10 years alrdy.
Dun ask me y not...
Pops bought it for me today :):):)
HAPPY~~

oh Happy Day!

Let's cont updating where I left off :)

Went to Pop's house to stayover soo that we can finish our GEK proj in time.
Had prata s'whr near his house as Dupper (Din+Supper).
Full beyond words :S but food was cheap and good!!

Din really mange to stay up coz I think we were both too tired from all the late nights previously...
Woke up ard 8 to do it.. Early mornings are awesome, once u get past the I-need-to-pull-me-outta-bed part :)



Pop's hand-drawn sketches.
I love his sketches!! It looks extremely pro aft he edit on the comp by adding some colours and description :)
I think he has a talent in this haha

And today....
The diving ppl went for their dive fair at suntec.
I tagged along, but went shopping at Newlook instead :P
I LOVE that place.
LOVELOVELOVE.



I wanted to buy tops. Coz I realise I have alot of bottoms, but not many tops.
But because I was wearing dress today, I took a pair of denim shorts to try with my clothes.
In the end, I liked the denim shorts the MOST!
I seldom get such good fit for bottoms from European brands. If they fit me on the hips, they are often too loose on for my thighs...
I fit better in Korean/ Jap/ HK/ Taiwanese brands.
But I really really loved the one from newlook.....................................
Pricetag: $59.90
SIAO. I will nv pay so much for a pair of denim SHORTS.
So I put it back onto the racks, albeit very reluctantly...
I even msg to pops to tell him abt it :(
Den he came over and find me (aft his own shopping) and as I wanted to show him the shorts, I realise that the other sizes had an orange tag on them.
SALESSSSSS!!!
To cut the story short, I bought it. hahahahah.
I hate myself for buying ANOTHER denim shorts, but I love it.
Life can be so ironic :|

Poppy bought mask for diving.





We went to church for Prayer Meeting in the evening.
Poppy gave his testimonial as a Christian today, on stage!!! :):):)
Soo proud of u popssss!
Then we shared abt our week and prayed for one another.

It feels really goood to experience God and feel His presence amidst all the crazy deadlines.

I think I have enough time-off, I'm getting back to work!!
4 more chaps of summary b4 Wed's test.

God's Company

Dear Father, as I sit here weary, tired and without energy, thank You for reminding me that I can always come to You and trade in my exhaustion for Your rejuvenation. I come to You today and ask that You would restore rest to my soul.

In Jesus' name,

Amen.

(http://iamblessed.tumblr.com/post/440668229)

Fewer words, More photos :)

No time to blog over this couple of weeks...
1 presentation, 1 project, 1 paper, 1 test.

But still manage to find time to indulge in life's little joys and leave some lovely memories with the great ppl who happens to be in my life :)
So here's what went on over the weeks!

Prison Break



The security in the prison is super tight, I feel like I'm going on some studio tour ala universal studios.
While it's pretty much like what I expected it to be, it's still quite an eye-opener experience :)
Aft that me and shammy went City Plaza for shopping spree and Arnorld's Chicken omgit'sstillsoooofreakinggoood! :)

CHAOS mini get-together

No pictures, but as usual, very very satisfied that I get to meet them :)
chitchat on sat afternoons are great... I really miss our bi-weekly meeting...
Waiting for nxt sat!!

Trying Grad Robe

This is how we're gng to look like. Graduated.



Final Innovativeness Lecture

The one with the super sweet lecturer :)



Our egg din even crack a bit!!

Starbucks Study Session



Honestly, my fav place to get my work done :)
Holland V's is great, esp if we get to sit on level 2...

Good Friday

It was an extremely solemn, candle-lit event.
We read about Jesus' death, we sang about it, we give thanks for it.
We her abt an inspiring true life-story of a musically-talented couple who seemed to have everything b4 they know God.
Until they gave birth to 2 mentally-retarded daughters.
They lost everything. Money, joy, satisfaction, even the tender loving heart of parents.
Then they got to know God.
They realised that all they had lost were nothing.
The best things they had were with them all along. Their 2 daughters were there for them, as much as they are there for their daughters. And they guided them to God.



Ming Si's Birthday

Had project meeting on fri's aftnn and had a mini birthday celebration for MS!



Partyworld!

Had steamboat dinner at Bugis with pops and his JC clique.
And we went to K aft dat.
It has been how long since I last K? Since last year end when we celebrate Deon and WX's bday!!
But all I can rmb abt this session was Jackson and his 一路"靠"北



Esther's 1-year Birthday



Cute but angsty little baby....



Going to Hortpark reminds me of the little photoshoot we had on our own last year :) sweet memoriesss~~

Addictive Presentation - Pathological Spending

We got an interesting topic, and an interesting grp as well :)





Too bad it's our last sem tgt when I get to meet them :(
But better late than never!!

Ok... i better go back to helping pops with the GEK proj :P

Tumblr along!

Huiqi intro-ed me to Tumblr today.

I saw all the telling photos and aptly crafted words.

In love...

I got home and started an account too:

http://daprayer.tumblr.com/

Follow me so that I can follow u!

thinking of...

Wonder when's poppy coming back with my BnJ...

Quite a couple of deadlines this coming 2 weeks.
Tons of work to do and complete...
I need sweet treats!

It's a Wonderland

Deon showed me a WEDDING photo album online.



Oh man i loved it... coz that particular album felt so.... Alice in Wonderland!
Not sure if they were inspired by the movie, but it's really gorgeous and extremely creative nonetheless :) And for a WEDDING SHOOT! woootz!

And it reminded me that I've seen quite abit of Wonderland-inspired photos ard:

F21:




(the photo that made me wish and wish that there's a rose garden in singapore...)

Lookbook:







US Vogue:

The concept was amazing. They got renowned designers like Marc Jacobs, JPG and the likes to play the roles of the other characters!


Marc J as Caterpillar


JPG as Chesire Cat

DY:



And Wonderland by Tim Burton is a beautiful piece of art itself :)





lovequeerprettylookingthings :D